I’m just going to jump right in and say this because there is not an easy way to say it. Starting July first I’ll be taking a break from blogging. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed for awhile now but it has finally gotten to the point where it starting to take a heavy toll on me. I still have a few blog obligations (blog tours) that I have promised to participate in and I’ll post those on my scheduled days.
This decision wasn’t an easy one because I love reading and reviewing books. But after blogging for awhile, it all started to affect my mental health. It got to the point where I was becoming manic about how my reviews sounded. Did I use the right words? Are readers going to make fun of my writing? Are they going to be upset because I loved/hated a certain book? It became a non-stop issue and I would panic about all of my reviews and what I was reading. I would write my review out and I would read and reread it so many times that I would never be happy with how it was all worded. I felt as if I was embarrassing myself constantly.
Another thing that made me make this decision was my spending habits on the newest books. I felt that everyone expected me to read and review the latest titles. I know that’s not really the truth but it was how I felt. I would pre-order and order so many books that I have hundreds and maybe thousands of unread books that I have purchased over the past couple of years. It’s honestly an addiction. After making this decision, I logged into Waterstones, B&N, and Books-a-million and canceled a bunch of pre-ordered books. I did keep a few but I canceled the majority of them.
And the final straw for me was that this felt like a second job to me. I’ve been there and worked two full-time jobs for awhile and it sucked. So when doing something I loved felt like a job, I knew that I needed to change something, And on top of this feeling like a job, I was getting little to no acknowledgement for the work I put into everything. It got frustrating. The pressure to do this was a heavy weight to carry.
I’m so sorry to everyone who reads my posts and loves seeing what I’m getting myself into. This isn’t a goodbye but a see you later type of situation. I hated being in this situation and that it came down to this. I just need a breather to get myself focused and into a better frame of mind.
And yes, I’m still going to be reading but I’m going to be reading what I want. So my reading choices might be a tad bit different than what I have been posting and I’ll finally be able to start reading my backlog of books.
If you would like to keep in touch with me while I take a break. I’ll add my Goodreads and Instagram links below.
Thank you all so much and see everyone soon.